Wednesday, December 29, 2010

What I remember: 2

“He’s at it again… he’s doing it again…”

Kyu Jong opened his eyes as he heard the familiar thumping of Hyun Joong’s head against the table. Sitting up, he wondered if they made the right choice when they decided that he didn’t need to know or remember everything. The memories that drove him down that path of self destruction should be kept away and never brought back to surface… right?

At least that was what they all felt at that time. But now, it just didn’t seem like the right choice. Outwardly, Hyun Joong seemed to be living a normal life, but only his brothers knew the pain he was going through. He spent his days wondering what was missing in his life, almost begging to be told the truth only to be pushed away with a picture perfect drawing called his life.

Walking towards the kitchen, Kyu Jong peered at the lonely figure that was once his confident hyung. Sighing, he pulled up a chair opposite Hyun Joong and called out his name.

‘Hyun Joongie hyung.. it’s past midnight. You should be sleeping.’

Looking up, Hyun Joong managed a small smile at Kyu Jong before staring off into space again.

‘Yeah, I know. But strangely enough, sleep doesn’t come easily to me these days. Was I always like that?’

‘Nope. You were the sleeping god of our group. You would jump at any opportunity to sleep the day away, even thinking that it was perfectly normal to be hibernating.’

Hyun Joong scoffed at that remark and looked at Kyu Jong in the eye.

‘Well, if that was the truth, then I wish that part of me would come back.’

‘It was really true hyung. You could sleep through almost anything, except for tickles.’

At the mention of tickles, Hyun Joong looked up at Kyu Jong sharply before he saw a vision in his mind, of himself being shaken awake by a woman wearing an apron and trying to reach for his sides to tickle him more. The vision was so vivid that he could hear her laughter, but before he could see her face, his head suddenly felt like it was bursting and he fell over the table in pain.

‘HYUNG!!! Wake up, hyung!!!!’

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

What I remember : 1

A little project of mine that has been on my mind for sometime now, just never executed. Pardon the lack of structure, I just wanted to vent and write something I wanted to write, and not something I was asked to write. ^^

What I remember: 1

“Don’t come back here for your honeymoon, for she’ll remember.”

"I felt that you were someone that the gods sent me. I just wanted you to know that.”

Hyun Joong woke up in sweat once more, to the same dream that he had been having for the past two years. It was always the same dream, of him talking to someone whom he called Bu In at a place so high up that it felt that he could reach out and touch the clouds. And he could see the side profile of a woman so beautiful that it ached, as she sat crying at his words. But try as hard as he could, he could never see her face. He could never hear her voice. All he remember was the stabbing pain he felt, as he wanted to reach out to her so badly, yet was unable to.

Getting up from his bed, he walked out of his room and into the kitchen and poured himself a glass of water. These past two years just flew by in a blink of an eye as he was kept so busy with his work that he didn’t feel the days go by. He understood why everyone wanted to keep him so occupied, they were all worried that he would once again think of throwing himself out that window, the way he did that fateful morning two years ago, when he woke up and remembered absolutely nothing.

His SS501 brothers told him that he was involved in an accident, and that he was in a coma for a week before regaining consciousness. While he felt that they did tell him truth, there was a suspicion that they were holding back something from him. Not just them, everyone around him seemed to walk about as though he was an active landmine, about to explode at the slightest revelation of his past.

And no matter how he tried to pry into his past, he was always fed with the same information. That he was the leader of a successful Hallyu group. That he was venturing into acting. That he was the youngest son of his family. That he was once in love with a girl but had to lose her because of his work. That she was now happily married off to someone else. That he wanted to be the brightest star in the universe and would never stop working towards that direction.

But that didn’t stop him from feeling that there was a missing piece to his jigsaw puzzle. There was always that distant memory of a woman his heart ached to hold, that woman called Bu In. The one that came to him every night, and went away before he could touch her face and see her one more time.

And he would be left with the same question he asked himself every night.

Who is she?

Saturday, December 25, 2010


Just wanted to drop in and wish everyone a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

And I miss my dear cave women dearly. I hope this year was great and next year even better! Love you guys!




Thursday, December 9, 2010

Hyun Joong's thoughts on dramas, the future and marriage

Hyun Joong, who has just recently wrapped up his second drama 'Playful Kiss', has definitely been in the media spotlight. The drama did not garner high ratings in terms of viewership, but was a hit online, and the YouTube editions of the drama drew in over 8 million hits.

When asked about his feelings towards the dismally low ratings that the drama received, he was rather positive in his answer as he stated that he was not all that bothered about the numbers. What mattered to him was the experience and lessons that he learnt from the drama. He realized that it wasn't easy to become a leading actor in a drama, and that although high ratings would have been great, he wasn't going to dwell on it as Playful Kiss was a drama that he held dear to him and was a project that he was proud of.

He also stated that while he was happy with his choice of dramas, he would prefer to not take on any roles such as that of Yoon Ji Hoo and Baek Seung Jo as they were too romantic for him. He also said that he would like to take on more beefy roles that would see him in a tougher light.

Hyun Joong also discussed his future, as he mentioned that he had to work his way upwards now, and assert himself as an established actor. As Hyun Joong will be the ripe age of 26 next year, he stated that it won't be long before he will be called to serve in the army, and after that he will have to return to the movie industry and continue to strengthen his foothold in the industry.

Considering such circumstances, he decided that he would not think of marriage anytime soon. Any talk of marriage would have to take place at least 10 years from now. While he had initially hoped to tie the knot before he turned 30, he now knows that it was almost impossible for him to do so as he neither has the time nor a partner in his life at the moment, hence his marriage plans will probably only happen when he is about 40.

Hyun Joong will be working on more overseas activities as well as album recording activities in the first half of 2011.


Hyun Joong in Singapore and Malaysia

Hyun Joong was recently in both Singapore and Malaysia as part of his promotional activities for the Face Shop, which he now represents.

He had a meet and greet session with the fans in both Singapore and Malaysia, as well as press conferences with the local media. He stated that despite having such a short time with his fans, he was happy to have had those moments with them.

He also made another contribution to charity as he donated the proceeds from the auctioning of his autograph to NGO World Vision.


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

And it's...

... the last month of the year again...

So 2010 has been a somewhat exciting, tumultuous, exhausting yet refreshing year for me. Did a lot of things that I never thought I'd do, and met with a lot of friends that I had not seen in ages. This year was also another one that made me realize that there are so many other things that I can do, that I should do, but I had refrained from doing.

Which isn't right, is it?

SO I guess 2010 was a year of enlightenment for me? In a way, yeah...

Looking back on the year, I see that I have sort of moved on and away from a few things. Friends have drifted away, and some have grown closer, but we all know that we do think of each other and care right? I love you guys! *hugs*

I think I will be going back to law, been tutoring first years, and it's weird seeing how different it is to be a student and to actually impart knowledge. And it made me realize how much I missed law. How weird is that? I used to feel trapped by it, and now, I feel like I need to go back and see a family member that I have missed for ages.

And it's been great having this place as an outlet for things in my life, and to know that I am not alone here in my realm of fandom. Even though it may seem that I am a fan of something that has been forgotten by time, I really don't think that it matters. Why should me liking something have to have a time limit? Why must there be an expiry date on something as simple as that? I won't stop doing anything I want to do just because someone else thinks that I need to wake up and smell the coffee. I do smell the coffee, and it's great. I just like having my cake with my coffee as well, thank you very much!

Which pretty much says that I will still be blogging here, even if it may not be as often as before. But I won't give this up! ^^

Anyways, I have been watching both Secret Garden and Mary Stayed Out All Night and both dramas are simply AMAZING!!! Especially Mary, I would wanna get married too if I had a Kang Mu Gyul in my life.

Ya, Kang Mu Gyul! Where are you? I am waiting!

Christmas is coming soon as well!! The cheer and present buying has started since what, September? But it's finally starting to kick in now that it's DECEMBER!!! ^^

So how has this year treated you guys? Good? Bad? Let me know, I always feel that I don't know you guys enough, and I wish that I did. So share with me sometimes, yeah? I do read comments and stuff, despite my lack of replies.

But I will reply!