Thursday, November 18, 2010

Just because...

I smile.. doesn't mean that I don't hurt...

I laugh... doesn't mean that I don't cry..

I pretend that every thing is okay... doesn't mean that I have forgotten every thing that has happened...

I sleep soundly at night... doesn't mean that I don't have demons haunting me...

I walk with my head held high... doesn't mean that I am not broken inside...

I sing and dance... doesn't mean that I don't feel like hiding away by myself in sorrow...

I drink my wine and be merry... doesn't mean that I don't try to numb the pain I feel in me...

I walk away from everything... doesn't mean that I don't want to hold it within me...

I seem like I can love again... doesn't mean that my heart is whole again once more...

I reach out with my arms wide open... doesn't mean that I will receive as much as I have given...

Just because I want you to be happy... doesn't mean that I am happy...

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

hi chongsa, are you ok? reading your post made me sad and worry... what happened? hope all is well with u and everyone... hugz....

Anonymous said...

Pick up your spirit and never give up. Hwangbo is a good example with her fighting spirit. Take care! Time is a great healer....

Anonymous said...

always failed to say thank you for keeping us updated on this blog. Thank you Chonsa. Still loving Joongbo.

Anonymous said...

just because... hmmm

be comforted by the thought that a million of us out there feel the same.

All I can do is just send you a smile :) and tell you, like I always tell you, everything will be okay.

I miss talking to you too... by the way. hehe

Anonymous said...

what a beautiful post.

Anonymous said...

Let's drink energy busters with world Joongboers each other with this tough time.