What I remember: 4

Hwang Bo greeted the soft rays of the morning sun with a slight smile as they peered through the grey clouds that filled the sky. Breathing in the salty air of the sea, she pulled her sweater closer to her, feeling the chilly air surrounding her as she slowly came back to life.

Why is it that although the needles of the clock keeps ticking away, I still feel like I am frozen in a time that no longer exists?

Opening her eyes, she looked around her and saw nothing but an empty beach. It was too early in the morning for anyone to be awake, and it was times like these that she felt free. She could be true to herself without having to fake a smile on her face, assuring everyone that she was alright. That she had moved on. That she was finally happy.

There was something about the beach that brought both pain and joy to her heart. It was here that she had spent some of the happiest moments in her life, as well as some of the most heart wrenching episodes of her story.

She remembered that this was where he promised to meet her whenever she called. This was the place that they had placed their vows in the sand. This was the place that tied the both of them together, binding them to their promises to each other.

Except for that last night. The one night when he broke his promise and she knew that it was the end. That night she felt like dying inside as she cried to the ocean, wishing it would take away the unbearable hurt she felt inside.

And the ocean granted her wish.

The waves that washed her feet reminded her that while things change with time, the tides would always return to where they belonged. People didn’t stop living because they lost what they loved.

They lived because they had once laid claim to their love.

Why should it matter that my world is now black, white and grey? I was once alive. I am still alive. And I will continue living. For me.

Hwang Bo repeated those words to herself as she trudged back to her car, holding back the tears that threatened to spill over. Taking one last look at the ocean before she drove off, she asked herself the same question she asked every day.

When will I ever forget you?